Thoughts of Clarence

Why do I feel that we have this connection? I know this isn't just my intuition. But why do I feel this way? Can't find the reason why. I can't keep my eyes off you, I feel happy just to stare at you. You always give me a reason to smile, All my worries and pain you take away. You light up my world of darkness, You lift me from the shadows of loneliness. You gave me strength to push through, You stayed by me through all these years. I know I can't reach you for now, Someday, I know I will. I will wait forever, Even if it takes all my life.

I'm a person of many faces, well not literally. I could be a drama queen, a clown in the group, a girl who gets into fights, a sweet and caring girl, and more. I'm not that pretty, fair, and tall. I'm just a simple girl who doesn't like to wear heavy make up, not even foundation, just the simple powder and lipstick will do. I sometimes wonder those people who wears heavy make-up for no special occasion, some just to post a picture in Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and etc. Maybe they want to hide something, or maybe they want to impress somebody. But if we all come to our senses, why do all these things for somebody else. I do believe that beauty comes from within, and so as some people out there. I also have my share of insecurities. Sometimes when I walk around, I see girls who have things that I don't possess, who looks like princesses without even trying hard. I can't help but wonder when will my moment come. Then I told myself, what if there are also ...

Nakakatuwa at napapadalas ang pagblog ko this past few days, siguro dahil minsan wala lang talaga kong mapagsabihan ng mga bagay bagay na nasa isip ko. Anyway, ambigat talaga ng pakiramdam ko every na nasa school ako. This is not someting scary pero ambigat emotionally. Due to recent events in my life, parang gusto kong lumayo muna sa mundo. Yung pumunta sa isang happy place at magstay dun ng matagal. Ngayon lang nangyari kasi yung grabe, before naman na experience ko na yung typical na ganito pero this time is different. Yung tipong every place and everything i see nakakapag paalala lang sa lahat. Sabi nila libangin ang sarili, pero pano mo naman lilibangin ang sarili mo??? Helloooooo.....hindi madaling makahanap ng ganun noh. Kung pwede nga lang na matulog na din muna ng mahabang panahon, gagawin na kesa naman gising ka at hirap sa kalagayan. Mahirap talaga pag nasasanay ka sa mga bagay bagay. Ang hirap ibalik yung buhay mo nung hindi pa nangyari ang lahat. Di mo malaman a...

Ewan ko ba ah, this has nothing to do with me but with my friends' situation. I'm not an expert of love, or even a love guru, pero alam ko naman pag hindi na tama yung ginagawa ng guy. I won't name my friends' name pero I'll share a little bit about them. I have one friend na nasa long distance relationship  Personally, di ako fan ng mga ganoon, kasi based sa observations ko at sa mga naririnig ko, siguro mga 5% lang ng lahat ng LDR ang successful, 95% ang hindi successful. Syempre isipin din naman na hindi lang love ang kailangan ng isang relationship, marami pa yang components. Parang car na hindi lang naman gas ang kailangan para gumana ng maayos sa loob ng mahabang panahon. Ayun, nalulungkot lang ako sa tuwing lalapit sya sakin at sasabihin nya ang problema nya dun sa guy. Di ko naman alam ang sasabihin ko kasi ayoko nga ng LDR dba. Although naexperience ko na yan, at nabilang yun sa 95% na tinutukoy ko kanina. Mahirap din kasi magtiwala ng sobra lalo na ...

I guess it's this time again, When my heart can't bear the pain. I'm on my own again, Can someone please lend a hand? I want to forget everything, Everything that reminds me of us. I want to erase all the memories, I want to stop all the crying nights. I wish to be in deep slumber, Sleep in a soft bed forever. Never to wake up again, Never to be hurt again. I want to live a new chapter of my life, Where heartaches are nowhere to be found. A happy and regret-free person, I know I can be one. I'm so tired of all these, I know time is all I need. Someday, I'll just laugh this out, But now, I just have to face everything, Even though it hurts so much.